I'm ready for school, ready to start the new semester.

it sucks when you put your effort and time into something you love and you loose it. I never really understand stand why people deserve to be made fun of. Why is it soo necessary to make fun of someone. does it make you feel better about yourself. Realizing this i feel that i need to be more respectful to others.

"Treat others as you want them to treat you because what goes around comes around"

i want to be more careless on certain stuff

Dear father

I don't understand why or how you can be making me dislike you more and more. at first i didn't mind but then i started realizing how fuckn' stupid it is & it frustrates me that i can't reach you not because you're busy but because you don't want to pick up. I fuckn' hate that i can only call you a certain time. How much more do i have to leave you alone? i feel abandoned by you. & at the same time you make me feel bad for you. maybe it's just her that i hate. i really miss you & i wish you were there for us or at least when we need you.

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i can say that i'm happy and so far i'm liking 2010. Even if i'm back at school i'm having some good times and conversations with my cousins. and i'm gonna miss my two cousin Rose and Robert, all the way from New York/socal. we recently talked about going on a snow trip next winter, even though its like a year away i'm excited because i know its happening. My cousins are already booking for a cabin this month haha. I'm happy and satisfied with life right now. "Getting to hang out with my cousins as a huge group (which almost never happens) is a better present than any of the shit I originally wanted for Xmas" I liked what my cousin said cause its true. i enjoy the times i had with my cousins and appreciate the fact that we can all be togehter for once. Besides all this i'm truely happy and satisfied with the friends i have especially my baby tunautuan. i seriously don't need more or less in my life right now. sorry i'm getting in to detail but i just wanted to brag about how happy i am. but at the same time i'm not saying i'm living the perfect happy life right now. I still have some downside towards my life but if i deal with it or even ignore it. it's all good. lets wrap this up by saying i love my friends & family && i will cherish every momment of my life :)

Missing Renae & Cedric
p.s. welcome to the family fiona

Happy 2010

Peace out 2009. Hello 2010. On new years eve, went down to pier 39 and then pier 1 for fireworks with tuan, anita & tristan. we learned from last year and got a way better view. Happy New Year Happy Birthday to my mom &&& Happy 21st month to TM :). Got to spend new year day with the family. Hot pot and sushi at my 2nd uncle's house then bowling at sea bowl with the cousins. that place was really nice. && more cousin time tomorrow/today. haha goodnight

" when you got somebody good, you hold on to em" -lyfe jennings

Thank you to Stanley who paid for all of us