Dear father

I don't understand why or how you can be making me dislike you more and more. at first i didn't mind but then i started realizing how fuckn' stupid it is & it frustrates me that i can't reach you not because you're busy but because you don't want to pick up. I fuckn' hate that i can only call you a certain time. How much more do i have to leave you alone? i feel abandoned by you. & at the same time you make me feel bad for you. maybe it's just her that i hate. i really miss you & i wish you were there for us or at least when we need you.